At some point, you have to be realistic about the gap between the life you live and the life that your daily habits and choices are leading you toward. 
 
Start with understanding how the autonomy of your choices and your ability to adapt contribute to your growth!
 
Imagine your life with...
.. more control over what happens in it. 
.. minimal stress & negativity. 
.. the ability to attract who you desire
.. no fumbling opportunities
.. fewer unintended consequences
.. out doing things you'll later regret
.. complete alignment
.. solid, equally yoked relationships
.. no jealousy
.. understanding & accepting your limit
.. more logical thinking
.. growth
.. real peace. 
 
Start by Learning Yourself & Your Limit with Emotional Intelligence & Boundaries. You'll be on the path to getting where you want to be!